7/365

I love you.

Three small words that can make or break a person?

That can make you want to be with someone forever?

That can make you loose all you inhibitions?

That can make you gain someones company?

That can make you hate someone?

Can you really love someone so much that their actual physical being hurts so much it can destroy your life?

To be honest I don't think I can understand this feeling.

Call me cold, heartless and ruthless.

Or maybe I'm perhaps just inexperienced with this.

It's not that I don't love, I do very much so.

I even fall 'in love'

But be that as you may, I simply don't understand.

Friends? Lovers? Enemies?

Are there other things besides being in love? Career, knowledge, loyalty, passion, family, friends, success, charity?

Or has my personal need to be an alpha female just smoldered my views?

I don't understand.

But either way I can listen.

I can apologise

I can reassure.

I'm here.

Sorry, yet flattered.

I'm not a cold, ruthless, heartless person.

An unintentional accident.

I gained, yet at a loss.

Please don't break me.

4/365

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." Marilyn Monroe

I came across this quote by Miss. Monroe on one of my friends facebook pages, after reading it and thinking I realised that this quote really reflects me and the way I am in relationships.

In general I can be quite selfish and I'm always very impatient.

When in a relationship I become a very insecure person and when I get close to someone I tend to loose control and become erratic and dysfunctional in certain situations.

1/365

It's a bit late.....

HELLO 2010....
So its a new decade, and to be precise the second new decade I've lived through.
Being a new year and everything I've decided to do something new, I've decided to start a 365.
Mainly due to the fact studying science at University is slowly killing my artistic soul...
Maybe this time I'll actually be successful and this whole "blog" malarkey, as I actually have to use it everyday.
So a little about me, I'm a 20 Year old forensics student. To sum me up:

* Fashion Fashion Fashion
* Science
* Art
* Photography
* Cleaning
* Music
* Sun
* Friends
* Conflicts
* Content fullness
* Pale skin
* Tanned Skin
* Colourful Hair
* Tea Shops
* Book Shops
* Cake Shops
* Bottled Water
* To Dance
* Colourful things
* Tack
* Fruit
* Vintage
* Loves to travel
* Has OCD, ADHD and SAD
* A loose canon
* A little insecure
* Either really angry or
* Really happy.